Behind These Chocolate Eyes: An Original Piece

I wrote this piece TWO years ago, and I just felt like revisiting it because I'm feeling this way again. This is me, what comes naturally...ENJOY!



Reality is crashing down on me,
Womanhood is born as childhood dies
Are you sure of what you see
Behind these chocolate eyes?

Mental, emotional, and psychological innocence snatched away
My response and reaction a cannot disguise
A world of uncertainty, confusion hidden
Behind these chocolate eyes

Why do I feel as though I'm being attacked?
Where did the assumption come that I like to tell lies?
The truth I speak is all you need to know about what is
Behind these chocolate eyes

Fulfillment and joy are always temporary
Sort of like a "get-rich-quick" enterprise
Gone in 60 seconds from
Behind these chocolate eyes

Waking up to see each priceless new day
I do believe it's wise to watch the sun rise
Because that's what I wish you could see
Behind these chocolate eyes

Tears of emotion threaten to overflow
For hope and inspiration I look to the skies
I know some will try and investigate
Behind these chocolate eyes

Loved ones always "come and go"
Who loves to say goodbye
For security, my thoughts stay
Behind these chocolate eyes

I wear this creative little mask, you see
Unveiling it might be my demise
Until I feel comfortable, the secrets stay
Behind these chocolate eyes

Confidentiality is a precious value
Like a shrink, it’s your job to analyze
But please don’t be shocked if I guard what is
Behind these chocolate eyes

Am I an invisible person who nobody chooses to see?
Is my importance that minimum a size?
I know I’m not the one with the biggest conceit
Behind these chocolate eyes

I feel as though I’m a stumbling block to you
For every incident, another random alibi
No more fabricated excuses for, there is a brain
Behind these chocolate eyes

Rejection hurts like a sizzling burn
Being block from the coveted grand prize
If only I could get all I yearn for
Behind these chocolate eyes

In all things considered
Why my values and standards I must compromise,
The weakness you see fails to be
Behind these chocolate eyes

My eyes are open now
The tears have long been dry
Strength and confidence only remain
Behind these chocolate eyes

Others will begin to notice
Soon enough I surmise
The new ways and being
Behind these chocolate eyes

Characters seem to be synthetic
For this, with you I sympathize
It’s about that time for you to delve deep
Behind your own eyes.

[SN: The beautiful little girl in the photo is not of any relation to me, I just found the picture on Google. Isn't she adorable, though? :D]

~NaturalNubia

I'm on YouTube!

Hey Everybody!

I just wanted to check in and bring a new update! I am on YouTube! I make videos about my hair(which is pretty naturally :D) and my struggle to lose weight. So you guys should go and check it out! This is the url to my youtube channel http://www.youtube.com/user/naturalnubia?feature=mhw4 so make sure you check it out! I'm really excited about all these avenues that I am using to express myself. Also, I will be talking about hair, fashion, makeup, school, music, ANYTHING that COMES NATURALLY!

~NaturalNubia

The Seasons Have Changed...Where Does That Leave ME?

Today, March 20, is the first day of spring. It's a beautiful day outside and the weather is great. What does that mean? Time to bring out the tank tops, the short shorts, laying out by the pool in skimpy swimwear, and wearing as little as possible, right? Sounds wonderful doesn't it? WRONG. I'm absolutely terrified! My body, which I am working on changing, is not something I would want to see at the beach or the pool...or even just wearing short shorts period.
Now don't get me wrong, I think that females that have the bodies and confidence to walk outside in those fashions are wonderful, and BELIEVE ME, I wish I could too, but its a serious blow to my confidence and ego because I cannot. I am currently on a long, tedious, and difficult journey to lose about 50lbs, and if I could just wave a wand or make a wish and my body would just miraculously downsize by about 7 dress sizes...I'd be ECSTATIC! But that isn't going to happen.
So I'll ask the question again, where does that leave me?

[By the way...this is the start of posts about my weight loss(or lack there of)...]

STAY TUNED!

-NaturalNubia

Welcome!

Welcome to ItComesPrettyNaturally!

NaturalNubia here...checking in! This is my very first blog, and I've created it for one simple purpose: to say what I want and to share it with the world. I'm very excited about being able to share my thoughts, life, goals, among other things with people. Get ready for the ride, people, because what I say, write, think, or do...just like my hair, COMES PRETTY NATURALLY! :D <3